Monday, January 9, 2017

Will Work for Respect

My therapist challenged me to look back on times when I found self-worth and self-respect, to figure out what exactly made me feel that way. This mostly involves looking back to when I was in a professional career, and perhaps even further to my early years in college. I haven't made lists before, but I think this will work better than the long form. Let's give it a go.
  • Positive Aspects
    • I worked my ass off (physically & mentally) and wore myself out in a beneficial way.
    • I was good at what I did, often without even trying very hard.
      • At other times I worked my ass off and was even better at things.
    • I tried and worked hard.
    • I succeeded, no matter what.
    • I was rewarded for my hard work and given favorable treatment.
    • I had some small power to make change and get rid of people that brought the department down. 
    • I could do things with less second guessing myself and without looking back, and be correct.
  • Potentially Negative Aspects
    • I was able to be mean and ruthless towards people I thought were worthless.
    • At school I was able to chuckle at slackers and watch them fail.
    • I even succeeded at times that I thought I didn't deserve it.
This can be a bit to digest, so I am going to pluck out my main themes.
  • Distilled Aspects
    • working hard and gave effort
    • success, power, and confidence
    • things were easy and I won
    • liked/respected by others
Let's go from there.

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